The ugly truth: she cries. The pain is at once too much and in too many places and familiar in the worst way, and tears just burst from her eyes. They stain his hand, with her grip on his arm so solid, her teeth on her lower lip to keep herself from shouting.
Internally she's shouting. Externally, there's whimpers and full-bodied trembles, but at least she doesn't embarrass herself further than that.
It's familiar in the worst kind of way, and that feeling twists a little tighter. I don't like seeing her hurt, that's all it is.
As soon as he's able, the cloth is pulled away, and water reapplied one-handed -- it doesn't feel like she's going to be able to un-claw her grip on his other hand, anyway. He presses again, soothing the bright red edges of the wounds, rinsing away what he can to soothe the burn.
"So, I hope what we've learned from all of this is to remember our Shield spell going forward, yes?"
Anger is a good distraction from pain. He's learned that, over the years.
A few beats of silence pass, then with a raspy voice - as if she has indeed screamed silly - she says: "Mage Armor at the very least. Shield is such a waste of a spell slot, Astarion." The latter almost sounds like her usual complaining tone.
She thinks that he's done pressing the desinfectant to her skin so she forces herself to release his hand. Astarion doesn't like to be touched, not unless he seeks it out, and even then - she's seen him shrug out of the way of a shoulder clap from Karlach. (Maybe because those can absolutely break you.) And Karlach is one of the nicest people she knows!
Still, uninvited her thumb brushes over the inside of his wrist as she lets go, in gratitude.
"Thank you for bullying me into taking care of my wounds," she adds with a stubborn pout, turning her head enough to be able to show him that she's - she's fine. It was bad fight but she's fine.
"Oh. Goodness. My mistake, then." Quickly withdrawing once she's started to disengage, he gathers up the cloth, leaving the water here for the time being. Then he pauses, long enough to see out her gaze and lifting a brow.
"I won't make it a habit, but you ought to look out for yourself more," the elf tuts softly at her. "Because I'm pretty sure if you wind up keeling over into a ditch, Gale will try to take command of our merry crew, and it's all going to fall over and catch fire in a hurry from there."
A smirk lingers in place as he shakes his head and rises briskly to his feet. "Go on and get as decent as you care to. I'll be back in a moment with step two of my fool-proof injury treatment plan."
She thinks he might do it again, even if she's determined to not repeat this again. He can't have done this for selfish reasons, there was too much care...
And apparently two steps. "I hope the second step is getting pissed," she mutters under her breath, and uses the same cantrip to dry her back off so it doesn't stick to fabric.
Since he's leaving, she gets to take her time to inhale through the knot in her throat, and let out a shaky breath. She lets her shirt fall to the floor, and opens up her chest to fish out a simple robe, the kind people wear about the home. She hasn't worn this one since she was still studying in the tower, but it's easier to wear without needing stays or a breast band.
There's a reason she doesn't wear this - it's sleeveless. It leaves the scar in her own full view. It's funny how this scar used to bother her so much, but in hindsight now feels like a small thing in comparison to what Astarion has on his back.
She's standing in the middle of her tent by the time he returns, frozen in the process of trying the belt of the robe on, and the first thing out of her mouth as soon as he rejoins her is a soft little "Thank you." More genuine than the grumpiness of earlier. More open, and a little surprised. She's usually the one sorting out other people's well being, so this was...unusual.
They might be friends now. She's going to go to hell and back if that's what Raphael demands of them for Astarion's request. If that's not friendship, what is it?
Astarion's brows lift as if surprised by the thanks. "Well of course, darling. You would have done the same for us. Now. If you insist on being sentimental, you'll need more of this."
And he presents her with a bottle procured from his stash, a smile dawning on his lips. There does seem to be an inordinate amount of wine lying about the place, wherever they go. Thankfully a few of these places have good wine hidden away.
She looks as if she could use it, to put it lightly.
"Just don't tell the wizard. If he catches on I've spoiled your appetite for dinner, he'll...oh I don't know. Be annoying at me. You know how wizards can be."
She takes the bottle with the hand above which scar is, making the decision to let him see. He's been forced to show his back scar to them by Raphael, which was a terrible and offensive thing for the demon to have done; all of his trauma laid bare so suddenly that Hermione hadn't even been able to say she knew what that felt like.
She is going to take a wild guess here that he doesn't want to talk about it, so she shows her weak underbelly first. Metaphorically.
"I have a vague idea of how they can be."
She has some goblets somewhere, grabbed from an old dungeon for the road because We're not barbarians and pours some for both.
She takes a long sip and lets out a sigh. "Alright - now can I be sentimental? I'm not used to people noticing when I'm injured, and I know you'll want to brush it off as some mention about how bad my blood smelled or something but I'm still very grateful."
No, he decidedly does not want to talk about it. And while he'd already seen the words carved into her skin, hazarded a few guesses of who and why, he can't imagine she wants to discuss her own scars either. Who would?
Still, his gaze lingers on the marks again for a moment before flickering upwards, a rigid smile on his lips. "Yes. I suppose you can."
But that's that, as far as he's concerned, leaning against a nearby post of the tent, accepting the goblet when offered and taking a sip that's honestly more for the scent than anything else. "Yes, well. I'd wager a guess you're more the sort to take care of than allow yourself to be taken care of. Am I close?"
She catches that, the look to her arm. She follows it with her own gaze, considering for a moment if maybe she should lengthen the sleeves of this robe, or perhaps change again - not that she can without being left bare from her waist up, in front of Astarion. It is what it is.
Her gaze drawn back up, she listens to the clever and well aimed analysis of her personality, which she could do without, but given everything he's done for her this evening, it doesn't chafe as much as it would with anyone else.
Not that, regrettably, anyone else would point it out. Harry and Ron certainly didn't, her help something that they accepted and took for granted in equal measure.
She glances down to his mouth, as he takes a sip of wine, catching a flash of fang and wondering how it is that it took her a while to notice them in the first place?
"Uncomfortably so," she admits, her voice quiet. She's far too used to taking care of herself, too, rather than being taken care of - in as many ways as he'll likely think. (It's funny, she's fairly sure he thinks she's some stuck up, virginal scholar. Many people do.)
She clears her throat. "My school was under the control of a vile wizard," she starts off. "He believed, and his followers believed, that a wizard is only powerful because the Weave, and magic, has been in their family for generations and generations. That allowing the school to take students who came from the common, unmagical masses was to muddy the blood."
And she's told him already about her parents, the dentists.
"My friends and I, we spent a good year trying to wrestle command of the school away from him, and to defeat his followers. One of them - she delighted in torture." She shrugs. "Just - if you were wondering. I don't share this often - and I've taken to long sleeves because...it's a long story to explain."
'Muddy the blood', eh? Well. That explains things rather neatly, doesn't it? It's a shame, how much the tragedy of their lives can be summarized in a few neat sentences. Of course, he could write volumes on what he endured and it still wouldn't feel sufficient.
That rage feels...bottomless. Perhaps the only way to fill that void is facing the source of his torment. Ending him. But they have more important matters to focus on now. Potentially world-ending, in fact. It doesn't leave much room for ruminating on personal tragedies or the desire for revenge.
As Hermione trails off, Astarion remains almost uncharacteristically silent, before taking another sip of the wine. His expression appears...oddly pensive.
"Someone was desperate to leave an impression, I suppose." There's a slightly hollow note to the attempted levity.
She paints a good picture, Hermione Granger. She certainly plays pretend very well, adopting the drive of a consumate academic, the fustiness of a wizardry scholar. The gifts that let her cast Vicious Mockery and Silvery Barbs at will, they have been around inside her far longer than she's been able to string a passable tune on a lute. She presents herself as such a bossy little know-it-all, always has; taking charge of a group of stragglers, each with their own trauma and hurt, and keeps it all together with sheer force of will. Infinite patience.
And so, Astarion declares that, and as the joke falls flat, her temper snaps. "Someone was determined to show me what they thought my place was," she says, none of the pensive tone to her voice anymore. "And now I carry the memory of that with me, and hide it from everyone who hasn't known me from before, because I do not want to be seen as some victim, some weak - "
She bites her tongue for a moment, just enough for a sharp burst of pain that refocuses her. Her grip on the goblet is white-knuckled; if not for the cup being made of silve, she'd have shattered it.
"Sorry, I'm just-" She exhales through her teeth and admits it, like ripping off a bandage for the scar below to show: "So angry - all the time. The very reason I was in Baldur's Gate when that illithid ship passed over it was because I left the school, because they were so forgiving of all those fucking monsters as long as their palms got greased."
A pause, long enough to realise her pulse is fast and she's panting, like someone on the verge of a panic attack, which - of all the things to break her, to snap her. Ironic.
"I didn't even used to swear before I started running around with you lot," she grumbles. Downs her glass in two long and greedy gulps, then waves it around, "Or drink. Or fight!"
Astarion lifts his own glass in salute. "And now you do all three. See how you've grown as a person? You're welcome."
This time the humorous note feels a little more genuine, but it's coming from a place of shared anger. For all that she pushes to do the right thing, the noble thing, she understands deep down that the world isn't noble. That people with power will do whatever the hell they want, whatever benefits them most, and to the Hells with everyone else.
It didn't even take her two hundred years to learn that lesson. Truly, a clever witch indeed.
It disarms her a little, enough that she lets out a spontaneous burst of laughter, which pulls at some of the wounds on her back and makes her grimace. It's all very dumb looking from the outside - laugh, flinch, grimace, groan, laugh weaker.
"My palate has been expanded," she mutters, setting the goblet down on top of her closed traveler's chest. She looks up at Astarion with a solemn seriousness, the night - the weeks? months? the year? - catching up with her.
"Listen, I - " she starts, then hesitates. He doesn't like to be touched, she doesn't imagine it comes from an excess of cuddling in the past two hundred years of his life. And yet tonight he stayed behind for her, helped her, nursed her bloody wounds and let her grip his hand through the pain. It's enough to form a knot in her throat, a flutter of nerves.
All the more reasons for this declaration to be spelled out.
"I know that you brush these things off because perhaps signs of kindness and friendship make you sceptical, so perhaps you will trust signs of understanding instead? If you need to make a deal with Raphael to find out what it is that's on your back, I'll follow you. When he names his price, I will help. Don't - don't sign your soul over to him, there is bound to be some other way, but if the devil is the only way, that's fine and..."
This part is conjecture. She's drawing conclusions about him and putting them into words: "And if you need a friend who will fight your demons with you, then I hope that you know you can consider me said friend. We are friends, I think." A pause, and a little bit more levity in: "I mean you've seen one of my battle scars now, which makes us at least level five friends."
It almost stings. Bitterness coils in his chest like an angry serpent. Perhaps just the realization that this existed in the world all along. Just never where he needed it to.
While she's put her goblet down, he hasn't. He in fact polishes it off entirely as she speaks, before licking his lips and leaning back once more. "I suppose it does. We do share that in common, don't we?" he replies, arching a brow at her.
"Having...people in our past trying to determine what we should be so badly, they'd etch it into our very skin. Here's to living to spite them."
She would toast him with wine if she still had a full glass. Her chin juts out proudly, her shoulders straight, and the anger melts into something else - unstoppable determination.
"That's a good declaration - I agree." Her gaze flicks down to his mouth - in the worst of times, clearly - and she notices them after he's licked them.
"You've got something," she murmurs, gesturing to the left corner of her lips. "There." It's a droplet of wine still sitting, unfairly perched on his lower lip.
Casually he lifts his thumb, tracing the edge of his mouth until he catches that stray bead and licks it away, quick as blinking. "Ah. Thank you. Shame to let something this fine go to waste, no?"
The anger starts to subside in his eyes, though the heat does not. And he's kept eye contact the whole while.
It hits her all of a sudden; as if someone has pointed somewhere at the core of her and ignited a Fireball inside her. All it takes is to catch that trace and lick, even in the periphery, and she finds it hard to swallow.
She drops her gaze quickly, her heartbeat racing in her throat, in her ears. Clears her throat, twists her fingers together. "Yes, well - that's true." She has no idea what she's even agreeing to. Some sort of typical Astarion suggestive entendre, no doubt.
(She would not waste him.)
"I might have one more - top you up?" she asks, already moving to the chest to pick the bottle up, to pour herself one more cup with a slightly shaky pulse. Weave have it, Hermione, get a hold of yourself. You're a grown woman, not a teenager with a crush.
Easier to tell herself before Astarion was suddenly at her shoulder, one arm slipping almost around her before offering up the goblet for a refill.
"One more, then. How could I say no?"
This close, he can almost hear the dancing of her heartbeat. And the tinge of her cheeks isn't just from the fine. The difference is...minute. Nuanced. But he knows how to look, to gauge interest safely from a distance.
The small catch of breath, slightly parted lips, eyes a little darker.
One hand reaches up to gently tuck a strand of loose hair behind her ear, almost absently.
She glances up while holding her breath, almost afraid of getting caught by his piercing gaze again and slipping to say something stupid. Not afraid of him, just - well, he has no right to be so pretty in general, let alone this close.
She did offer more (of his) wine, however, so she'll make this a quick glance. Just to see what he's looking at, what his expression is. She wants to think she can read his intentions well enough, but Hermione is hardly wise. She's smart, and occasionally charming, and wants to believe that people are capable of being good.
(There's always Fireball if they prove her wrong.)
His fingers are not cold, but the touch still startles a soft inhale from her, eyes snapping up to him, wide. It's a shame he wiped the wine from his lip, or she could help with that. It has been such a long time since she last kissed someone, but she would gladly kiss -
"Astarion." She clears her throat, lowering her gaze quickly so she can fill up his cup.
He smiles, razor-sharp, as he draws the goblet back towards him. That space between them isn't relinquished quite yet, however. He's studying her eyes even as they dart away from his, the rapid pulse rabbiting in her throat.
The way her eyes lingered on his mouth, for just a moment.
"Unless there's something else you wanted?" he continues softly, tipping his head just so.
It feels a little like being caught red handed, hand in the cookie jar. He is a very attractive elf, a very attractive person, and he more than knows it. Knows a lot about a lot of things, probably - in the grand scheme of an elf's lifespan, what are her twenty-plus years if not a blip?
She can tell the minute his question turns pointed, and feels embarrassed for a moment. She should be better at hiding this, too. Nevermind that others are finding love (or at the very least kinky sex in the ruins of a church), she's surely not allowed. Least of all, to find something nice, for herself alone, in the middle of the Shadow Cursed Land.
The fact that she blushes feels like a betrayal to herself, and she feels scrubbed raw for a moment. Nothing to do with the wounds now.
She swallows a knot in her throat, and raises her gaze to his, defiant for a change. "What do you want?"
A very complicated question to answer. So he keeps smiling, as she stares up at him like she's daring him to do something about it.
"Well I mean, what does anyone want? A warm feather bed, some good wine, and a little fun now and then would suit me just fine. Although I'd never say no to some empty flattery." Astarion chuckles, easing back slightly onto his heels. "And yet here I am. Decidedly out in the wilderness, with vinegar for wine, and 'fun' decidedly lacking at the moment. Some trip you talked me into."
"Vinegar for wine? What happend to it's too good to waste?" She turns her head to take a sip of wine, and with a step sideways manages to put some distance between them.
Enough to recover her thoughts.
"Can't believe you didn't have fun playing nurse to your favourite wizard," she starts, with an amused smile. Shakes her head, considering his other needs. "But I can do flattery. You'll have to decide how empty it is. You're a very beautiful man, Astarion, and the closer I am to said beauty, the more tongue-tied I feel. If you start lecturing me about how you're talking about sex when you say," here she imitates him again, but just for the word, "fun, I might combust."
The vampire hums and clucks his tongue softly. "Combust? Tsk. I didn't think we'd gotten nearly that far along. Wait until I actually start trying."
As she drifts away, putting that distance between them once again, Astarion relaxes his stance. It's clearly not discomfort, not with her bravely wading into this particular conversational pool.
"Of course this is all hypothetical. For the moment."
"Purely hypothetical, of course " she agrees, with a toast of her cup, and a sip. She chooses this as the right time to sit down again, even if her seat ends up being the closes chest that holds all her belongings.
"In the purely hypothetical sense, of course, why aren't you? Actually trying, I mean. I'm not without my charm, I'm sure, and I'm definitely willing and interested, so I've - in a very roundabout way, circumnavigated, you see - wondered if it's because you don't want to." A little shrug.
"Honest hypotheticals only, no hard feelings. And also if there are no hard feelings."
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Internally she's shouting. Externally, there's whimpers and full-bodied trembles, but at least she doesn't embarrass herself further than that.
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As soon as he's able, the cloth is pulled away, and water reapplied one-handed -- it doesn't feel like she's going to be able to un-claw her grip on his other hand, anyway. He presses again, soothing the bright red edges of the wounds, rinsing away what he can to soothe the burn.
"So, I hope what we've learned from all of this is to remember our Shield spell going forward, yes?"
Anger is a good distraction from pain. He's learned that, over the years.
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She thinks that he's done pressing the desinfectant to her skin so she forces herself to release his hand. Astarion doesn't like to be touched, not unless he seeks it out, and even then - she's seen him shrug out of the way of a shoulder clap from Karlach. (Maybe because those can absolutely break you.) And Karlach is one of the nicest people she knows!
Still, uninvited her thumb brushes over the inside of his wrist as she lets go, in gratitude.
"Thank you for bullying me into taking care of my wounds," she adds with a stubborn pout, turning her head enough to be able to show him that she's - she's fine. It was bad fight but she's fine.
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"I won't make it a habit, but you ought to look out for yourself more," the elf tuts softly at her. "Because I'm pretty sure if you wind up keeling over into a ditch, Gale will try to take command of our merry crew, and it's all going to fall over and catch fire in a hurry from there."
A smirk lingers in place as he shakes his head and rises briskly to his feet. "Go on and get as decent as you care to. I'll be back in a moment with step two of my fool-proof injury treatment plan."
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And apparently two steps. "I hope the second step is getting pissed," she mutters under her breath, and uses the same cantrip to dry her back off so it doesn't stick to fabric.
Since he's leaving, she gets to take her time to inhale through the knot in her throat, and let out a shaky breath. She lets her shirt fall to the floor, and opens up her chest to fish out a simple robe, the kind people wear about the home. She hasn't worn this one since she was still studying in the tower, but it's easier to wear without needing stays or a breast band.
There's a reason she doesn't wear this - it's sleeveless. It leaves the scar in her own full view. It's funny how this scar used to bother her so much, but in hindsight now feels like a small thing in comparison to what Astarion has on his back.
She's standing in the middle of her tent by the time he returns, frozen in the process of trying the belt of the robe on, and the first thing out of her mouth as soon as he rejoins her is a soft little "Thank you." More genuine than the grumpiness of earlier. More open, and a little surprised. She's usually the one sorting out other people's well being, so this was...unusual.
They might be friends now. She's going to go to hell and back if that's what Raphael demands of them for Astarion's request. If that's not friendship, what is it?
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And he presents her with a bottle procured from his stash, a smile dawning on his lips. There does seem to be an inordinate amount of wine lying about the place, wherever they go. Thankfully a few of these places have good wine hidden away.
She looks as if she could use it, to put it lightly.
"Just don't tell the wizard. If he catches on I've spoiled your appetite for dinner, he'll...oh I don't know. Be annoying at me. You know how wizards can be."
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She is going to take a wild guess here that he doesn't want to talk about it, so she shows her weak underbelly first. Metaphorically.
"I have a vague idea of how they can be."
She has some goblets somewhere, grabbed from an old dungeon for the road because We're not barbarians and pours some for both.
She takes a long sip and lets out a sigh. "Alright - now can I be sentimental? I'm not used to people noticing when I'm injured, and I know you'll want to brush it off as some mention about how bad my blood smelled or something but I'm still very grateful."
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Still, his gaze lingers on the marks again for a moment before flickering upwards, a rigid smile on his lips. "Yes. I suppose you can."
But that's that, as far as he's concerned, leaning against a nearby post of the tent, accepting the goblet when offered and taking a sip that's honestly more for the scent than anything else. "Yes, well. I'd wager a guess you're more the sort to take care of than allow yourself to be taken care of. Am I close?"
Sip.
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Her gaze drawn back up, she listens to the clever and well aimed analysis of her personality, which she could do without, but given everything he's done for her this evening, it doesn't chafe as much as it would with anyone else.
Not that, regrettably, anyone else would point it out. Harry and Ron certainly didn't, her help something that they accepted and took for granted in equal measure.
She glances down to his mouth, as he takes a sip of wine, catching a flash of fang and wondering how it is that it took her a while to notice them in the first place?
"Uncomfortably so," she admits, her voice quiet. She's far too used to taking care of herself, too, rather than being taken care of - in as many ways as he'll likely think. (It's funny, she's fairly sure he thinks she's some stuck up, virginal scholar. Many people do.)
She clears her throat. "My school was under the control of a vile wizard," she starts off. "He believed, and his followers believed, that a wizard is only powerful because the Weave, and magic, has been in their family for generations and generations. That allowing the school to take students who came from the common, unmagical masses was to muddy the blood."
And she's told him already about her parents, the dentists.
"My friends and I, we spent a good year trying to wrestle command of the school away from him, and to defeat his followers. One of them - she delighted in torture." She shrugs. "Just - if you were wondering. I don't share this often - and I've taken to long sleeves because...it's a long story to explain."
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That rage feels...bottomless. Perhaps the only way to fill that void is facing the source of his torment. Ending him. But they have more important matters to focus on now. Potentially world-ending, in fact. It doesn't leave much room for ruminating on personal tragedies or the desire for revenge.
As Hermione trails off, Astarion remains almost uncharacteristically silent, before taking another sip of the wine. His expression appears...oddly pensive.
"Someone was desperate to leave an impression, I suppose." There's a slightly hollow note to the attempted levity.
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And so, Astarion declares that, and as the joke falls flat, her temper snaps. "Someone was determined to show me what they thought my place was," she says, none of the pensive tone to her voice anymore. "And now I carry the memory of that with me, and hide it from everyone who hasn't known me from before, because I do not want to be seen as some victim, some weak - "
She bites her tongue for a moment, just enough for a sharp burst of pain that refocuses her. Her grip on the goblet is white-knuckled; if not for the cup being made of silve, she'd have shattered it.
"Sorry, I'm just-" She exhales through her teeth and admits it, like ripping off a bandage for the scar below to show: "So angry - all the time. The very reason I was in Baldur's Gate when that illithid ship passed over it was because I left the school, because they were so forgiving of all those fucking monsters as long as their palms got greased."
A pause, long enough to realise her pulse is fast and she's panting, like someone on the verge of a panic attack, which - of all the things to break her, to snap her. Ironic.
"I didn't even used to swear before I started running around with you lot," she grumbles. Downs her glass in two long and greedy gulps, then waves it around, "Or drink. Or fight!"
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This time the humorous note feels a little more genuine, but it's coming from a place of shared anger. For all that she pushes to do the right thing, the noble thing, she understands deep down that the world isn't noble. That people with power will do whatever the hell they want, whatever benefits them most, and to the Hells with everyone else.
It didn't even take her two hundred years to learn that lesson. Truly, a clever witch indeed.
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"My palate has been expanded," she mutters, setting the goblet down on top of her closed traveler's chest. She looks up at Astarion with a solemn seriousness, the night - the weeks? months? the year? - catching up with her.
"Listen, I - " she starts, then hesitates. He doesn't like to be touched, she doesn't imagine it comes from an excess of cuddling in the past two hundred years of his life. And yet tonight he stayed behind for her, helped her, nursed her bloody wounds and let her grip his hand through the pain. It's enough to form a knot in her throat, a flutter of nerves.
All the more reasons for this declaration to be spelled out.
"I know that you brush these things off because perhaps signs of kindness and friendship make you sceptical, so perhaps you will trust signs of understanding instead? If you need to make a deal with Raphael to find out what it is that's on your back, I'll follow you. When he names his price, I will help. Don't - don't sign your soul over to him, there is bound to be some other way, but if the devil is the only way, that's fine and..."
This part is conjecture. She's drawing conclusions about him and putting them into words: "And if you need a friend who will fight your demons with you, then I hope that you know you can consider me said friend. We are friends, I think." A pause, and a little bit more levity in: "I mean you've seen one of my battle scars now, which makes us at least level five friends."
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While she's put her goblet down, he hasn't. He in fact polishes it off entirely as she speaks, before licking his lips and leaning back once more. "I suppose it does. We do share that in common, don't we?" he replies, arching a brow at her.
"Having...people in our past trying to determine what we should be so badly, they'd etch it into our very skin. Here's to living to spite them."
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"That's a good declaration - I agree." Her gaze flicks down to his mouth - in the worst of times, clearly - and she notices them after he's licked them.
"You've got something," she murmurs, gesturing to the left corner of her lips. "There." It's a droplet of wine still sitting, unfairly perched on his lower lip.
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Casually he lifts his thumb, tracing the edge of his mouth until he catches that stray bead and licks it away, quick as blinking. "Ah. Thank you. Shame to let something this fine go to waste, no?"
The anger starts to subside in his eyes, though the heat does not. And he's kept eye contact the whole while.
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She drops her gaze quickly, her heartbeat racing in her throat, in her ears. Clears her throat, twists her fingers together. "Yes, well - that's true." She has no idea what she's even agreeing to. Some sort of typical Astarion suggestive entendre, no doubt.
(She would not waste him.)
"I might have one more - top you up?" she asks, already moving to the chest to pick the bottle up, to pour herself one more cup with a slightly shaky pulse. Weave have it, Hermione, get a hold of yourself. You're a grown woman, not a teenager with a crush.
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"One more, then. How could I say no?"
This close, he can almost hear the dancing of her heartbeat. And the tinge of her cheeks isn't just from the fine. The difference is...minute. Nuanced. But he knows how to look, to gauge interest safely from a distance.
The small catch of breath, slightly parted lips, eyes a little darker.
One hand reaches up to gently tuck a strand of loose hair behind her ear, almost absently.
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She did offer more (of his) wine, however, so she'll make this a quick glance. Just to see what he's looking at, what his expression is. She wants to think she can read his intentions well enough, but Hermione is hardly wise. She's smart, and occasionally charming, and wants to believe that people are capable of being good.
(There's always Fireball if they prove her wrong.)
His fingers are not cold, but the touch still startles a soft inhale from her, eyes snapping up to him, wide. It's a shame he wiped the wine from his lip, or she could help with that. It has been such a long time since she last kissed someone, but she would gladly kiss -
"Astarion." She clears her throat, lowering her gaze quickly so she can fill up his cup.
"Do we toast to it?"
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He smiles, razor-sharp, as he draws the goblet back towards him. That space between them isn't relinquished quite yet, however. He's studying her eyes even as they dart away from his, the rapid pulse rabbiting in her throat.
The way her eyes lingered on his mouth, for just a moment.
"Unless there's something else you wanted?" he continues softly, tipping his head just so.
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She can tell the minute his question turns pointed, and feels embarrassed for a moment. She should be better at hiding this, too. Nevermind that others are finding love (or at the very least kinky sex in the ruins of a church), she's surely not allowed. Least of all, to find something nice, for herself alone, in the middle of the Shadow Cursed Land.
The fact that she blushes feels like a betrayal to herself, and she feels scrubbed raw for a moment. Nothing to do with the wounds now.
She swallows a knot in her throat, and raises her gaze to his, defiant for a change. "What do you want?"
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"Well I mean, what does anyone want? A warm feather bed, some good wine, and a little fun now and then would suit me just fine. Although I'd never say no to some empty flattery." Astarion chuckles, easing back slightly onto his heels. "And yet here I am. Decidedly out in the wilderness, with vinegar for wine, and 'fun' decidedly lacking at the moment. Some trip you talked me into."
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Enough to recover her thoughts.
"Can't believe you didn't have fun playing nurse to your favourite wizard," she starts, with an amused smile. Shakes her head, considering his other needs. "But I can do flattery. You'll have to decide how empty it is. You're a very beautiful man, Astarion, and the closer I am to said beauty, the more tongue-tied I feel. If you start lecturing me about how you're talking about sex when you say," here she imitates him again, but just for the word, "fun, I might combust."
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As she drifts away, putting that distance between them once again, Astarion relaxes his stance. It's clearly not discomfort, not with her bravely wading into this particular conversational pool.
"Of course this is all hypothetical. For the moment."
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"In the purely hypothetical sense, of course, why aren't you? Actually trying, I mean. I'm not without my charm, I'm sure, and I'm definitely willing and interested, so I've - in a very roundabout way, circumnavigated, you see - wondered if it's because you don't want to." A little shrug.
"Honest hypotheticals only, no hard feelings. And also if there are no hard feelings."
If he catches her drift.
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